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2009-10-17T15:37:00.002+08:00

Back with alot of updates,but will sumarize what happened this week :):

Tue 13 oct

At last real class started after 1st day nightmare from previous day.Head down to one of the CAD( computer aided drawing) for drawing the sketch from the last meeting before school start, at first open the software confidently think that for sure the skills we learn under SPETA will not rust, but I was wrong, I look at the screen blankly first before starting to recap what I've learn during the 7 weeks before holiday, everything went smooth, after few black out, each of us, gave up & spend the whole day surfing net or playing online games till the knock out from work .

Wed 14 oct

Two good news Which I've been waiting for months, first is enlistment for NS next year, hahah Receive a letter at last from MINDEF, though for sure I will get enlisted to the army but I was wrong when I open the letter, Guess what I get into the Police force, hahah not suprises la, will be serving next year in the month of may, wheeee can't wait.

2nd good news is at last I get my pay check after waiting for at least two months, suppose to get it before the festive season, but the boss of the company keep dragging it, maybe he is bit stingy & miser like "Haji Bakhil", hehehe bank in & yup withdrawing $$$$ for own expenses like buying my clothing for investiture next mth

Fri 16 oct

That was a another nightmare for me & some of my classmates who stayed till the end of the knock off from work, wtf serious, in the morning there were at least bout 10 students, but after lunch left 3 students in the class , becoz one bugger classmate of mine, who think every eve of any festive season he will self declare holiday for him, what bout others? they followed him lor, where else rite, left me & two of my classmates having intention of doing the project but cahnged our mind, started to serve the net the whole day, On Monday, I wish best them all the best whether the "mustachio" course manager whether he want to expelled them or want them to repeat the six months again, seriously scary, luckily I never self declared or else I will in same state with them.

Sat 17 oct

Head down to BB ITE today for another pledge training, hmm investiture is coming nearer the date, can't wait to step down, Attendance for my campus improved for today from usually 3 ppl who turn become 10 ppl turn up for today, may the number go up as the day is getting nearer. See alot of new faces, hmmm can't blame why they are left out coz it's their fault for not attending lor.

Ok enough of updates, will update again soon, take care & goodbye for now........:D

2009-10-12T20:06:00.002+08:00

After five weeks at home , at last back to school........, was looking forward to it but it turn out the other way, let me rephrased it as a nightmare in the broad daylight I should say, I come to school, sit down in a new classroom like a quarantine or isolation room for a SARS Patient or H1N1 patient from 9 am till 5 pm with my classmates.First few hrs we just sit down & started listening to the course manager babble non stop & he left us to do our own work then.

So bored one by one gathered in one table, told each other about ghost stories, yup alot of versions and alternative from each of them, out of sudden course manager pop out from now where, asked us what are we doing sitting & talking ???? we answered him that we are exchanging ideas, yar rite change idea ???? talking & telling bout ghost stories got to do with final year project :), heheh very hilarious actually, each time he pop out we will give different reason :), hahaha first day of school, the brain still dying & the mood for study was not there.

After lunch, one of my classmate start a most stupidest game ever which we enjoy playing eventually after we are bored at the first place & have to keep our self occupied till 5 pm:P, first game throw a rolled paper & try to throw inside the each other mouth with a bet who can throw it , but none get it,the paper rolled was thrown to the face, neck, eyes etc, not the mouth at all, all we know is fun.

Followed by throwing a dime/coin to a shoe, hahaha more stupider but funny, both of my classmates try their luck to make it go inside the shoes but fail, so after having a lot of fun, we just wait & start to talk nonsense which you guys will not like to know, course manager came back to check on what we have done but lucky he didn't check just release us from there, tml is proper self study cum movie watching during break time looking forward to it, ok got to go, will update again soon, bye for now :)

2009-10-06T15:57:00.002+08:00

Everyday is a sleepness night for me now, each night watching music video to entertain & make me sleepy but still I not sleepy. Try reading a wordy book , yeap make me feel like yawning but still same thing, not sleepy but too boring & lengthy, hmmm whar bout Msn ??? , hahah yesterday was the funniest & long conversation with someone, she should know who is she :), hahaha spend five hrs chatting with her ,haha thank you for entertaining my teasing and nonsensical jokes...hahaha I hope you "enjoying yourself", hehe I know you know la,heheh :)

Everyday at home, sitting down stonning at one corner like a fool sometimes till mum got throw either a laddel to make me react, LOL I know my mum is quite violent sometimes, but still I still love her coz she is mum, who take care of me since I was born in this world. hahaha don't blame me why I am stonning at first place, maybe it's my hobby too :p

School is starting soon & yup I dont feel like going, but what to do, I need to complete my last final year project or else will not be graduating, tml meeting my group mates for final discussion cum slacking & catch up with our stories along the way, before I go , I came across a nice old music i want to share with you, here you go guys:

tell me yr view on this beautiful written song on my tag box yar, ok got to go will update again soon :D

2009-10-03T15:37:00.003+08:00

What a lazy saturday afternoon actually to be frank, everybody in the house have their own stuffs to do only me don't have anything to do. Why ???? firstly my sleep is disturb by continuous phone calls,people talking loudly & strumming the guitar like a child who know nothing bout guitar. Omg Yesterday I can't get myself to sleep that is why I need sleep badly, but too bad once awaken the mood for sleeping is not there.

Hahah quite envy with my kid brother, happily without fail his friend will ask him to "jalan rayer" with them, yup that is the good thing but the bad thing is once he is out of the house, don't expect him to comeback on time as what he promises, hahaha can't blame him actually friends do play a major role in teenagers and growing up. I've lost count how many days I'm at home doing nothing but rotting or slacking at home without fail, hahah that's life actually for me when I am lazy to spend my cash or hanging out with my peeps. School is re opening soon & yes me & my group mates haven't touch the project but have planned it before the school closed, so not a rush for us actually, once done with it, long holidays all the way, wheee can't wait :)

Recently I found another addiction which is taking alot of orange juice and eating mixed nuts without fail, I don't know why I am doing that, hmmm soon it will be add under my list of addiction, Omg without them I will feel funny in a way, no mood for everything especially orange juice, can anyone tell me please .Do oranges have side effect if taken it on daily basis ?? if yes tell me, write on my tag box, thx & call it a day. ok got to go will update again soon...........

2009-09-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

Back with new updates guys, sorry if the update of the blog is very slow to you guys :P, hahaha yesterday was loved, first day at work wasn't bad after all actually,got to work with kids, walking with them from point to point @ singapore discovery centre to the army museum which the other side of the building which is quite far, hmmmmm even though is quite tiring I manage to escort them to and fro, if not wrong I escorted about 90 kids in a group of four with my one of my colleague which also my GS from sc, zahier.I do make alot of new friends there too:)

Legs feels like going to break but look at every kids faces, makes me forget my pain & tiredness, they are so adorable & so cute each one of them. I not sick in the brain but I love kids to the extend sometimes I forget I treat them like them like my own. Finish work at 3, all went separate ways, they took bus where I take train alone, what to do , most of them stay at Jurong area while for me is more the north side.Thanks sabrina for the sms you sent to me & sorry due to late reply :)

Once reached home, head shower & fall asleep, Awaken at 12 midinite to check my mail,chat with some people I know in msn, switch off lappy & sit down at the balcony & stone there till 3 am before its started to rain, hmmmm i becoming nocturnal again, sleep late & wake up late, hahaha ok got to go will update again soon :)

2009-09-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

Been try to blog but don't have any ideas blog as my brain is good as dead, try really hard to blog but nothing strike my mind. Hmmmmm first time I don't have ideas,can't be blame as I been dead tired as waking up very early and coming home late & can't get myself to sleep, hmmm I don't know what is bothering me actually but my hearts tell me something which I can't sense, be it good or bad I really want the know, what is my heart trying to tell me.

School holidays is coming to an end soon so goes to the festive season, hmmm see alot of kids dress in their costumes knocking to strangers houses just to celebrate rayer, got the cheeck to do that, I am one of thier unlucky victim which those monkeys knocking the house door of mine, f**k tub theese kids so happily knocked ppl door like nobody business, parent never teach is it ?? I don't know what their parent teaching their child theese day, congrats to them seriously for not teaching your child very well.

ok enough of updates, I dont want all the words of poisons and inappropriate coming from my mind and my hands typing those bad words, hmmm ok I want to continue watching my favourite tv show, bye for now :)

2009-09-20T16:32:00.004+08:00

Just got back from Hari Raya celebration day 1, so tired but overall I have fun as I get to meet my cousins and other people in the family, every year without fail, off to dad's side before going to mum's side, yup very tiring to travel from one corner of singapore to another part of singapore , hahaha no wonder mum have been nagging & reminding to take up a car license die die this year, demanding rite my mum ???

Photo been uploaded at FB, but still incomplete, so got to wait for other half from cousin Hamizah & Aizat before I can say its full complete album of Hari Raya 2009, this year celebration the feeling of celebrating is very different from the previous years I celebrated back then, yup can't be blame as I getting older & the mood changes, everything is normal to me, same old thing , same old jokes & so on. hahaha green packet collection especially the amount collected is less than hundreds as you grow older the amount decreases or no green packet for certain houses you visit.

I am really fortunate to celebrate it with my family, I'm taking this chance to not to take adavantage what I have now, tresure them before its too late to do so, ok before I go , I wish you all reader "SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN" :)

2009-09-17T20:37:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry guys for not updating for long period of time due to a lot of things just happened in this particular holy month of Ramadhan, so sorry yar, I know guys you guys been wondering where have I been missing & not updating this dusty blog of mine, ok enough of reasoning why have I not be blogging, alot of reasons la , can state it down but till tml also can't finish the reason :)

Ok guys, first and foremost, my lappy went "sick" and was admitted to the "hospital" for servicing, hahaha don't know what happened to it, system can't be log in, only blank screen appeared each time I log in & its automatically log off and restart over and over again like spoilt radio which cannot stop talking, LOL. Alot of things happened this month , been coming down to school for sc meeting to meeting my superior from attachment side :P, hahaha pay cheque havent come in yet , wah lao so long need to wait, hahah hope its come soon as I need to use it to buy my stuffs which is important from head to toe and daily needs.

Yesterday head down to geylang serai with my one of my junior from sc & fazul to kill time as meeting ended early & If went home too early what can I do ? stoning like a thinking man statue or sleeping, haha too common rite ??? hahah hmmm hari raya is coming soon & alot of things in the house need to be done from spring cleaning to changing curtains to washing the toilet, talking bout toilet i hate doing it even though ppl call me "pro" but I don't think so, hahah been my job every hari raya to wash it from dirty to clean like public toilet.

Hahah enough of toilet, can't wait for me to complete the fasting month test, hahaha if I able to complete it this year, will be an acheivement for me lei, why I say that ??? coz each time when fasting comes, I will either don't want to fast due to friend's influences or sick, sianz or just an excuse not to fast, hahah ok got to go will update again soon :P

2009-09-05T14:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday is the day where out of sudden I met my ex-secondary school friends while I was walking back home. Talk to them for few mins & before I left, they ask me whether will I be free after my break fast ??? at first I don't feel like so I told them I call you If I coming down, so I did came down & find them @ arcade, Saw them driving like mad person in maximum tune. Reminds me of them & myself when I was in secondary,spending the whole day after school playing maximum tune.

FYI, they were chinese, yup before having alot of malay friends in ITE, my friends were made up of chinese, why ???? coz in that time, the malays were very nonsensical people in class, so I really don't befriend with them, no offences yar. back to the story, After playing to their satisfaction, we head for dinner at foodcourt & catch up with our old days during our secondary school life. They changed alot from head to toe so do I, hmmm too bad I'm not same school as them as they take private rather taking ITE due to their personal reasons.Slack with them till late & headed back home seperate ways, will meet up again with them soon.

Yeay at last I will be having a long holiday break when after I collected my pay check on Monday, wheee so free but I must keep myself occupied as i don't want to be bored to death at home most of time. Maybe I will find a job where my classmate is working now. Hmmm the last time I remember working part time was way back after N-level. Hmmm I will busy once I start working, anything just beep me, I will make myself free if possible. Ok got to go will update again soon.... :)

2009-09-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

Going to school on the public holiday today isn't bad as it looks or sound. At first when I board the train, alot of office workers in their formal wear look at me from my spikey hair of mine till my very shiny call sneakers like never see a student before inside the train, haha can't blame them coz it's weird to see a student dress in a uniform on a public holiday, but to me is its's no a crime what, school ask you to come to study, just go la, don't talk much.

When after I arrived, look at the surroundings of the school, haha seriously speaking, it's like a ghost town or cowboy's land, very empty & you can only hear your footstep while walking, From the first floor of the institute till the top floor, very quiet nobody there only you & yr classmates hear each breathing & voices, hahaha what makes things worse when it started to rain heavily, yup it's cold & dark. Lunch time & it's still raining continuosly, sit down at one of the canteen table under the dim light, one by one dozzed off & left me awake, this kind of classmates also have, sit down for 2 hrs while listening to their snoring while I was waiting for smses from school to friends.

Back in class,teacher instructed us to programme that particular design, but all of us went sleepy either they dozzed off instantly again or just talk till knock off @ 4.30 today, hmmm Journey back home was alrite as the train is not crowded at all, hahaha I like it but tml back to normal where I will squeeze like a sardines in the tin :), ok got to go, will update again soon :)

2009-08-26T19:45:00.003+08:00

OMG !!! today alot fof things happened to me from the day in school till my journey way back home in the MRT, let me emphasize it in three parts for this post !!! :D

Morning : in school
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For the whole today is exam, for the first time in my life, I have to crack my brains just to to complete all exams in one day continuosly for the whole day. Faced the computer just to edit & finalized each design given by the teacher & show him the final product. Lucky for today I never cock up anything or else say goodbye to my $$$$ after surviving each stages every two weeks.

Tml will be a new & the last round before the holiday commences either for 3 weeks or 5 weeks, hope I will able to dominate & graduate with flying colour next year.

Lunch
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Omg, out for lunch break, one by one, lit their ciggarette & drinking while I kept calm & say to myself " it's just another test from the mighty one", hmmm seriously speaking feel like smacking them one by one, malukan orang ajer *, some more older than me while giving me a sardine face* like nth happened like that.

Then still got the cheeck to ask me to join them just to puaser yok yok, aiiyoh I really don't know what's wrong with them, bloody hell !!! though them ol, wise enough to think what is right or wrong, sianz......

>On the way home

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This section really fright me out of my chair, when a BIG UGLY FAT mak nyah sit beside me, try to flirt with me while fanning herself with her foldable fan, eeee for the Jurong station, I sit one chair far from that monster as she kept winking at me & staring at me till I got to run other cabin, save for quite well but I was not....

she find me & give me a last wink before she drop at woodlands, eeee really disgust me & make my all hair stands still. THen when I alighted at home area, same thing happened, another species appear, looking at me, eeeeee oh God pls save from theese people !!!!

PS/: I am suffering from homophobe since I meet this kind of creature since the age of 7.(homophobe- scared & phobia of homos)

2009-08-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

Back with blogging after been missing from this blog for quite some time, alot of reason why I put a notice that I will not blogging for some time, simple reason is because I got no idea what to blog or I just don't know what blog in my blog, ok enough of reasoning, now time for update people :D

As you guys know this month is a fasting month where all Muslim in the world fast for 1 month. In this particular month I been experiencing things which is very unsightly & embarrassing for me as a Muslim, ok to be precise I been quite pissed by some people whom just don't want fast even though is a must & fit to fast, I not complaining or begging people around me or them to fast, as I got my own business to meant do they.This what I see with my own eyes during the fasting month:

1. Older people munching old chang kee puffs & drinking like they not wrong like that.

2.Couples touching here & there in front of people in the public transport like nothing happened like that.

3. wearing skimpy outfit where cleavages & undies of theirs is very easy to spot.

4.Rolling tobacco & smokes till there is no tomorrow like that

This just an example what I seen for the 3 days of fasting, but I got more than thay but if I stated it down till tomorrow also I will done with blogging, hahah, hmmm sometimes I salute small kids who are fasting, why coz they can withstand temptation of food or drink, but look at the old, very disappointed la seriously speaking, but when comes to hari raya, can tell to people very proudly that they fast where else they are not eventually like duh, scared to be humiliated , to them "face" cannot be drop or else they don't know how to face peopl around them....

Consider myself lucky to see this kind of things, it really open my eyes wides to see what people in our society is doing , hmmm shake head la, may they realised one day that importance of fasting :D

2009-08-20T19:18:00.002+08:00

I am taking a break for now due to alot upcoming stuff in terms from personal & school. Can't confirmed you guys & other readers when I will be blogging. Thank you for understanding, leave your comment at tagbox :D

2009-08-11T18:45:00.008+08:00

Got back from the cinema happy & satisfied yesterday as the movie is very entertaining & funny till you can laugh all the way from the start of the movie till the end of it, suprising right ??? Usually when I watch a movie, usually either I ended myself dozed off due to long story line & very slow or end up stonning as can't understand what they movie to reach out actually :P

The tittle of the movie is "Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak" or translated in english, don't look back congkak. Let me give guys a short sypnosis on it, the story is about the late grandfather who left a will to his three far distance grandchild but in order to get his will, they got to over night in the house for 3 days 2 night without leaving the village/kampong.Things started to change among themselves when one of the grandchild accidentally touch the belongings in the house of their late grandfather, which is the congkak which is one the traditional games used to be played by the malays in the old days. Worse comes to worse when they started transform themselves into a super natural beings when the full moon appears & wake up the next day getting different kind of rewards. AHEM!!!, ok enough of sypnosis is good but it's better to to catch it, it's also good to bring non-malay friends to watch it coz they got subtittle :),once again go & catch it, guranteed never waste your cash on the ticket for this movie :)
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p/s: don't worry faint hearted won't be frightened/shocked to death :) ,hehehehe

2009-08-10T11:44:00.002+08:00

Stay at home yesterday due to still on medication, worse come to worse when all your family members went to the wedding while you at home alone, bored & no one to talk to eventually. I was not suprised or sad coz this kind of things always happened to me or other family member in the house , when you are sick or lazy you can stay at home but you got to cook for yourself as sometimes they left you in early in the morning or later in the evening just to go to JB or wedding receptions most of the weekends.

Fastingis around the corner actually, I am looking foward to it but just Hari raya aidilfitri that I not looking foward actually, why ??? this year seriously even though the celebration falls on September I still got to rush for my end of year project & presentation as November is the deadline of everything.I got no time for fun but got to juggle with it with the best of my might. Time flies fast, don't you agree guys ??? now is August, sooner or later you know it's October or November for example. Maybe when you rush things out, time flies fast while when u you delay your work, time go slow on you, nice or not ? up to you all to decide as different people different mindset of thinking.

At last I recovered fully from migraine but still I not putting my guards down at migraine can come & go just like that. I started to get migraine at the age of 14 when work piles from school till cca, yup when first time you experience it you feel like the brain of yours wants to explodes but soon after getting the attacks very common, you can take the pain but still the feeling of it still unbearable, trust me people or you can ask anybody you know . What it feels to have migraine ? I doubt that you guys would like to know , once you know you guys will paranoid for some but for some is another knowledge to be in the brain. ok got to go, meeting with my class peeps for movie @ 2 at AMK , will update again soon :)

2009-08-07T12:05:00.002+08:00

My head still spinning while my eyes look in the circle for few seconds as I wake from the bed just now just to take my medicine. This is my first time having continuous migraine & nausea feeling for more than 3 days.Usually when me & my peeps play around this kind of game like for example " spinning top" which consist using a merry go round & human & spin it for more than 2-5 minutes continously, I will just ok & vomitted just to fee l better after the rounds.

But this time is way much difference from the last time, What I know is my head get knocked by the bar of the merry go round while I was screaming like a small girl or sissy for the best word to describe :p, when the rotation stops, I walk like a drunkard who can walk straight, my eyes went blury & I vomitted what I ate & go down & lie on the floor for five minutes. After gaining back my conscious, my head feel groggy & dizzy, walk back to class & continue with lesson. My face was pale as I just saw a ghost or so. Went to the toilet continuously for more than 3 times , worse than lady who got morning sickness, ahahaha :p.

On the way back home, each time the train stops at every station, my head & body feel weak, but put up a brave front that I am ok & cool but inside me I feel like to want to pass out in the train any seconds, reach home , msn session for a while & take my late dinner & pop a pill & went to bed. Wake up the next day to get ready for school, yup everything went back to normal but during the lunch break my head starts to spin again & yup its hurts 2 times than the day before.

Took a time off & head to sc room to sleep as I forget to bring my keys & no one at home if I reach home too early.Cut the story short, reach home put down my bag & head to the clinic, the clinic was full of kids aged from 3 to 7 who scream like mad & run around till the parents got to scold them. Seriously speaking but no offence, the new generation of parents don't know how to take care of their kids seriously speaking. Got my prescription from the doctor & head back home to rest.

Thank god now I'm feeling much better , but still each time I wake from bed either from a sleep or nap I got to sit down first or I will black out like just now, lucky just now when I was in the toilet to do my shaving, I black out but lucky I got the chance to grab the toilet bowl & rest for few seconds before I start to stand up again. I really learn my lesson not play this kind of nonsensical & stupid games when I recovered fully, this kind of game really cause me to miss class today & yup I'm bored like **** as I got nothing to do other than eating my medicine, rest & surf the net only la, ok go to go , I need to rest :D

2009-08-03T19:31:00.005+08:00

Back again for new updates :), hahah been not updating for 1 week I suppose if I not wrong la people , hahaha ok enough of that. Well last week is spend frutifully actually even though I was out from home from more than 10 hrs per day, you guys must be wondering why I am outside for more than 10 hrs each day. Let's start from friday till sunday to be precise,let me give you guys a sypnosis for each day then.

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Friday

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Wake up very early to get myself ready to for medical check up. Hahah been waiting for the day to come actually, people may call me crazy coz why you should be happy to go to medical check up & next step is to wait for the letter to come from when to report to serve 2 yrs of NS, hahah as to them studying is better then serving NS, why they say that ? don't ask me, every boy got their reason to say that, but who cares sooner or later your turn need to go NS what, ok back to the story.

Reach CMPB at 7.45, wait for the door to be open at 8 sharp, hahah when everything started once the door open. Meet alot of different kind of people from different background like for example from the mummy's boy to the gangster. Altogether there are 10 station, ppl start to fear the 2nd station because of blood need to be draw , hahaha I see a big body guy who scared of needles who got lot of tattoos on his body yet still scared of needles, I wonder how he do tattoo as needle is use to draw a tattoo ???. The worst station that all boys hates is answering question from maths to common senses, the sickening part of it is that you got crack your brain just to answer some of the questions, haha but seriously la its good coz then they can know how intelligent are we actually :)

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Saturday

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Meeting for sc for both juniors & seniors @ esplanade is quite disappointing la actually, only 2 juniors show up while other giving funny reasons or just really sick due the recent weathers in Singapore.Finish meeting at 12 noon & all went separate ways as either went for lunch or went home straight or some where to meet up with their friends/family members.

Went back to esplanade to have photography sessions with fazul, mas ariff & jimmy, bump into syauqi & yup we start the session at 6. The event wactually NDP preview but what caught our eyes in the fire-works. Every year different kind of style & pattern ah ended the session at 11 pm, so tired that I went to bed after I've with shower.

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Sunday

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Wake up late, to be exact 4 pm, yup when comes to weekend I will wake up late as it's weekend what. Cannot blame me la, actually I consider myself a sleepy head, who will dozzed anywhere,anytime if I want. After shower , watch tv till late night from 5 to 2 am in the morning, haha one tv show kept me laughing till today in class, hahah the show is called "MAD bout English". The show is about citizens of Beijing, China try to speak a good perfect english. Hahaha Consider we singaporeans lucky la coz not all people in the world know how to speak english lei. Hahah very impressed with them even though they are pronounce the words wrong they still try their best to speak.

I don't know how I felt asleep in the couch , what I can remember is the channel that I watching is channel 8, movie staring sammy yam,anthony wong & patrick sum, movie bout gangsters who get killed one by one & yup the next morning I wake up, mum nagged at me non stop lor like radio like that, cannot blame her, I don't switch the tv but leave the tv watch me sleep till I wake up the next morning,LOL, ok got to go will update if I got the time to do so.

2009-07-28T18:22:00.003+08:00

Recently if you guys watch TV this month, there had been alot advertisement from health to sports but one ad/commercial caught my center of attraction for the past few days & have been keeping me thinking about it since then. The advertisment is about anti smoking which is just advertise recently every day without fail. Sorry don't have the video, been searching & high & low for it in youtube :p. To get the better picture of it I advise you watch it & yup the message really makes me want to jolt down in the blog now. The message of the ad is "Father who comsume cigarettes will likely makes the child urge to buy", in one simple word is call "INFLUENCE", yup "INFLUENCE", as you guys know I just quited few mths back to something which makes want to stop, not because of the ad.

I don't blame my old man for smoking seriously when I was younger but thankfully he quitted fews year back too. When you are young you will to try to become like your father or mother in such way from the way they dress to the way they speak coz you take them as the first role model in life before going to school & embark yourself more from the outside world.Sometimes I consider myself lucky because it really enable me to taste the path of life which got the good & the bad path when I was 14. I don't blame people whom I know or see why they become like that or this, as we got the right to choose what we want to in life actually.Seriously speaking the child starts to think for themselves when they reach to the age of 7 -21, so that is where all things started to change in them , be it the good or the bad due to people they mixed with or who they are influenced by in their daily life. They can be from their brother, sister, friends, father, mother etc so on & so for to influence them.

Fews days back when I was on my journey to school, I was shocked to see my secondary school mates who is I know him more than 18 years,what makes me surpised & shocked & dissapointed is from a good polite kid change into a bloody rude bastard, yup imagine you guys in my shoes for sure you want to punch or kick him till he drop dead due to his behaviour & attitude. What I can say is may one day he will learn his lesson & turn into a new leaf, seeing him making me want to go to house & knock his door & whacked him to death, seriously .I pity his parents la actually but I can't do anything if he don't want to change for his own good, so let him be , let him do what he like as long he happy & mind his own business I will be gladly & be contented. Ok got to go will update again soon if I got the time to do so, caio for now ppl :)

2009-07-24T18:12:00.002+08:00

School had been great this week actually , I don't know when was the last time I had great time in school , usually in school either I am bored by the lecturer lesson that I dozed off or I give a miss for that particular lesson or day & only attend if I feel like it, but this time is different not becoz of strict rules or $$$ they offer me at the end of the month but I learn something new which is kinda of interesting & good news for students who scared of crashes due to cutter or drill knocked the workpiece & damage the machine, lazy to wear safety boots & dust coat etc, & yes I am one of them.

The programme is popular among student who are in engineering area/firm/course. This computer programme is call VTC. I forget the long form of this abbreviation, but what I can say this programme do you wonders if you know to use it or bring frustation & go mad if you don't know how to use it at all.I had fall in love first time with this great programme, usually I prefer to do pratical machining then doing visual machining. Hahaha at first quite blur coz its just introduce to me just on the monday & today I can remember all the commands etc. good or wat I leave to you guys to decide.

Before I endthis post, I like to wish this kid brother of mine, Akmal for turning 17 today, hahah at last he don't no need to wait & sulk while everytime mention to himself " when I going to turn 17 ???? so long needd to wait ", hahah can't blame him, so eager to grow older & so on, ok got to go will update again if i got time to do so.

2009-07-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

Been busy lately after get posted for attachment in school.I've been waiting for reply from the school since last holiday till it extended to 2 weeks due to something cropped up in school system. Only some lucky students get to be attached at the company located near their homes, but for me & others was not so lucky that we are place in school but after looking at bright side of the problem we face at least there something to be done in school from learning to maintenance machines in the workshop.

Separated in three different group of 3 classes in terms of discipline,attendances & gpa points. I was lucky to get the first group compared to the other group who will do maintenance or doing nothing. My group just got to come to school, just attend class & go off early compared to other group. The good things is we will get paid if we pass all our exams given by the school, hmmm sounds challenging but it is very motivating for students who need $$$, LOL.

I also have less time using my lappy , facebook & go out with friends compared to the last time where I can go online more than an hr, once I reach home, do my normal stuff like shower after get back from home, revise my work & off to sleep very early. Hmmm sometimes when I too tired, I forget to eat, shower if I was too tired after got back from school,I know you guys can't blame me what, too tired that sometimes you guys do that too right ???, ok got to go will update again if I am free to do so, goodbye for now.

2009-07-17T11:29:00.003+08:00

hahah, back with new updates, been not out of the house for two weeks, I started to become a mountain tortoise, why I say that, coz when I was at home, I know nothing at all what is happening in school, outside etc, muahaha call me a fool, slow etc if you like to do so, but don't be shocked once I out the house again to start my attachment on 20/07, then you know how fast I can absorb things around me, I not bragging guys but it's a gift of absorbing news or information around me. ok I'm quite lazy to type so I going to summarize what will happened on this month & next month.

July 09

20 July- Attachment officially commenced( no time for facebook )

24 July- Little bro 17th birthday

31 July- Medical check up/ Mum 45th birthday

August 09

8 August- UFC 101: declaration ( will bet with darren)

9 August- National day

22 August- Fasting month comenced

Quite alot of thing coming, got a mixed feeling of happy, sad, etc, I looking foward on 22 August coz it fasting month.Whee can't wait for it to comes, ok got to go will update again soon.

2009-07-10T18:10:00.002+08:00

I know this blog had been left for quite sometimes even though is just a fews week or two, some more I know alot of avid readers of mine complaining to me in facebook, msn etc, yup the reason I never update is coz either I'm too lazy to blog due to tiredness or I am outside for the whole day either jamming to playing pool to hangout with friends or I am so busy with my own stuffs till I forget that I owes a blog, hehe, Lom tuer dah peluper, dah tuer macam maner nanti eh, ok enough of old man wise man tales, time for update.

Nothing anything special changes through out this whole week at home, just the weather kept changing randomly without anybody knowledge. Yup now I having a soare throat & I sound like a monster to some till they frightened themselves, LOL !!!, hmmm weather been a fuck tub lately, raining, sunny, cloudy,raining sunny continously for now , hahah sometimes when I want to go out I am uncertain with the weathr outside so I always bring my hoodies along in case raining.

During my extension of 1 week holiday, I watch alot of music vidoes & yup I like to share with you guys some of the Mv I came across while I am bored at home staring at lappy's screen, yup may not be your listening or interested genres that you guys listen but at least try to loosen up & be open to different kind of music then sticking to one genre. here is the video :P

2009-07-06T19:22:00.002+08:00

After 1 month of holiday break, back to school today. Today's trip to school is ok as it's youth day for some students in singapore so the train is not packed at all. When I on the way destination to school & out of sudden I felt odd, irritated as I kept walking to the gate of the school. As I entering the gate, I was stopped by teachers to take my temperature, they used the infa-red thermometer which look like a gun & guess what, they kept taking my my body temperature for 5 times with different style as sake of trying to make me smile & laugh with their jokes but too bad they failed to do so.

Went up to see my course advisor to take my results & find out where was I posted to but he was there , went missing. Wait in the canteen, saw my classmates, all ther face were so sour like mine, well maybe they feeling the same as I am or not, then out of sudden, he appeared & told us briefing will be 10 am with the course director, Mr Chan, yup wait for 1 hour, sit down & while listening to my MP3 while one of my friend kept talking to me non stop like there is no tomorrow like that, but I dont entertain him , pity him but too bad I got no mood today la, so sorry about it.

Clock tick at 1o, My Class advisor came to find us in canteen to give our result slips & went missing again like a shadow. Merge class with the opposite class, then Mr chan came in & the briefing starts, briefing ends at 11 & holiday extended till next week starting from tomorrow, haha, went to school is just like wasting time today, waste my transport $$$, waste my time just to find out from Mr Chan that we all may not be posted to any company due current situation which face in the country, attachment at school also I don't mind as long I done with my projects & graduated is good enough already, hmmm will update again if got time to do so.

2009-06-28T11:41:00.002+08:00

Back to school next week,wheee!!! I am so happy to go back to school but my body tells me that I am lazy to drag myself to school due to more than 1 month holiday makes me feel lazy, very lazy :P,yup I know most of the students in Singapore will be back to school either by tomorrow despite H5N1 thingy or next week. I can assure next week when I go to school in the morning on MRT, the MRT will be packed from students to office workers etc. Ahaha before I forget, I wish a good friend of mine, Sabrina.All I can say is have fun in your new school yar, can't wait to hear what in your new school in stall for you, hehe :p

Holidays have been fun & laughter for me for most of the time, I been playing online games, going out & been staying up late till 5/6 am in the morning to play game or chat with my friends either local or overseas.My sleeping routine have change drastically, usually the latest I will go to bed is 3/4 am in the morning but due to holidays the time change, yup I will wake up after 2 pm in the afternoon everyday since the holiday started. sometimes I can sleep till 4pm sometimes depending whether am I tired or not. School is starting next week , I can't afford to be late for school anymore coz I need go for my attachment & attendance is very strict unless the last time where I come in anytime like a super star, LOL :P

Ok gtg, will update soon...

2009-06-24T10:37:00.002+08:00

Got a sms from the school regarding exam results today early in the morning, while I was still sleeping soundly like a pig, as the weather just nice for sleeping. My eye were blury as I open the sms, When I see the results my eyes open wide, quite shocked la, first time got "D" for one module for my course which I am in now. Switch on my lappy check the results by using the school portal as the message is not so clear. Hmmm when I check my gpa, OMG !!!,it decrease by 0.3, but I've try my best already so just got to accept it, to me pass is good enough then failing.

After checking the results, shut down & off to sleep again as I am very sleepy. Got a call this time from my classmates asking how much I get for my results ???, I know its's normal for human beings to compared with themselves, to know whether are they better than some one they knew or lousy than some one they knew, didn't really listen to him actually, all my mind think is get back on the bed & dozzed off, but the feelings fades away when I put down the phone. Aiiyoh spoilt my mood sia, if I know I never pick up the phone call, but I did so there is nothing to do about it.

Now waiting to come back to school in July & find out which poly I will be posted for attachment, hmmm talking bout attachment, I got no ideas who will in my group of 4 to complete 5 projects in 5 months, sounds challenging but seriously I can assure that what I do in school, it's not going to be same at all from the workpiece wise especially, I am really looking foward towards it very much, can't wait to get my hands on those projects.

Yeah at last , my addiction for smoking either ciggarettes or sheesha have fade completely. Long story la, only some people know why I stop out of sudden :D, Now I must not get back to smoking as it takes me few years to stop la, some more ciggarettes are expensive & I dont my ruin my health anymore, so thank god & others from motivation to making me scared with you experiences & stories which is entertaining, ok got to go guys, will update again soon......

2009-06-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl , back with new updates. For the past weeks , I've been dreaming the same dream where ever I go to bed... you guys may be wandering what am I dreaming...I've been experiencing SNAKES ... yes SNAKES !!!! , scary rite ???? In my dreams snakes will be coiling & tightening me in my dreams & I'm suffocating, the feeling is so errie down to the core. Cannot take it anymore the feeling, so tell the person which it the best person is my mum, like duh mother know their child best, correct ?

My mum asked this following questions

What colour is the snake ?

how many at one shot attacking you ?

what you are doing in the dream ?

got anybody admire you for now ?

I like WTH !!!!, I kept silence for a moment, then answered her questions one by one , she then told me that actually what is the reason why the snakes attacking, coiling me etc, because she said is got somebody want you badly, somebody want hand in marriage to you, I like eh I so handsome meh that people want me like that ??? my mum then told me aiiyoh boy alot of my friends daughter see you like one kind like one to eat you like that, I laughed only while she kept in silence.

So I asked my friends regarding these matter that I've been dreaming off, hmmm to be exact same question being asked & same explanation like my mum told me, I like OMG !!!!, I am still young lor , Not even in any boy girl relationships at all like other teenagers whom I know who is my friends, hmmm relationship ????, nah hard to find good gals in Singapore la, very few, so that is why I am single & I am chasing my dreams lor, hmmm who want to date me, with a person who is very rough, violent personality unless the person like la... ok got to go will update again if I got time.

2009-06-14T16:59:00.002+08:00

Today, I look at the mirror & stare at myself for 15 mins in daze. I realise I have grown up alot in terms of physically & mentally in my 18 years of life. What I can say from a cute baby to a handsome teenager was quite fast cycle in life. My physical appearance from less hair to a hairy body & same goes for the intellectual & mentality increases as I grow older day by day.

Sometimes when I think back When I was younger ,I envy older people coz they got money , they got freedom they got everything but I was wrong when I grew older a bit I began to understand being older is very hard & difficult compared to younger people in the community, being old is stressful, pressuring, alot of responsibility to handle like what our parents are doing now for example.

Sometimes I wonder for myself , becoming young or old is better ?, each option have the advantages & the disadvantages. I still can recall when my friend's younger brother say" I wish I am old so I can taste paradise as what older people are doing now", where else I heard from my dad " Wish I am young again, no heavy responsiblity at all just enjoyment" hhaaha, quite true but back to the reality check once grow old you just got to continue what are you doing.

You can't be peterpan lo, so don't dream what I can say is take thing step by step, enjoy life to the fullest, if you are young enjoy your life to the fullest before you grow old, & for the old it's ok to be young at heart but it's not ok if you think you are young unless you are "orang tuer terbiat". Ok got to go will update again if I got time.

2009-06-13T15:04:00.001+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS GREATEST BRITHDAY I CELEBRATED IN 18 YEARS OF MY LIFE.

THANK YOU FOR THE WELL WISHES PEOPLE, REALLY APRRECIATE IT.

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN :D

2009-06-10T14:35:00.002+08:00

Have you came across a place or area where you will feel comfortable, peaceful when you at that particular space etc ?, different people have different place or area which they called it a name, be it from a void deck to roof top to balcony of your house. I called mine " Besto- place", actually this place is located at my own home. my is a balcony, it's like bird cage if you see it from far or beside it.

At first, when I move in back in year 2000, I find the balcony very plain at that time, there is only plants which planted by my dad, hmmm no one was allowed to enter the balcony, only my dad can go in, yup quite sad, I know,but all his plants die on him , one by one in the year 2003, dad give up planting & use the balcony as a smoking area for guest.I started use the balcony as like my own room but not to the extend of sleeping on it or changing my attire.When everytime I in the balcony area, be it even though I am sad, I feel happy immediately, it sounds crazy but what should I say , certain place give you the calmness etc.

If you happened to visit my house for certain occasion or any normal day, you will see me in the balcony alone, either smoking or look at surroundings around me without anybody distuurbing me including my family members, this balcony where I find inspirations, ideas, ok got to go, will update again if I got time to do so.

2009-06-09T13:18:00.002+08:00

Hey readers back with another update. Yesterday was the most relaxing & heavenly for me. Guess what ??? , I went to the spa with my mum, wheeee, don't laugh ar, who say only women go to spa to pampered themselves, men too but small number only, hahaha. Supposely visit to the spa is today but mum push it to yesterday due to her tight schedule :(.

Anyway,mum arranged me for full body massage, First session thought was going to be nightmare unlike the last time, wah really a sexy masseuse, but the massage skills & technique can kill me lo, she pull, she step, she press me till when I wake up the next day, my whole body ache, back to the story ok, this time the masseuse is male, old & experienced, much better the skills & technique applied on me, but same thing body still aching today when I wake up from bed.

Mum say its for my own good, but when I ask her to explain, she just answered me when you grow older than you than you will thank me for this, hahaha if you guys know what she trying to tell me, tag my blog. Wah next week will be the second session , it will be suprise for me again & I love it, don't know why mum choose me to go spa with her among my two other brothers ar??? ok got to go will update again soon !!!

2009-06-08T01:21:00.002+08:00

To me, what does hapiness means to me ?

Is it just a pure laughter & joy all the way ?

Is it full of good & unforgetable memories?

It just can't be answered without experiencing it.

Thinking about it just so simple, where

experiencing it is just so hard actually,

Sometimes I wonder what am I

lacking of actually ???

Fortune, fame & position are there

but still I asked myself why I am living

in this luxorious life where something is

still lacking around here????

Ask myself alot of times everyday,

what am I lacking or missing???

Can somebody or someone tell me

so I don't have be in doubt, forever.

I only get to know the answer after

doing alot of soul searching for long

the thing which I am missing or lacking is

love from someone special for my entire life

Hope to find the right one soon....

anywhere....... anytime.....

2009-06-05T00:49:00.009+08:00

My Wenesday was full of joy & fun !!!, when Yassier sms me early in the morning when I'm still in bed, asking me to go out with others including him to have a little pool session @ lucky plaza, hahaha usually when anybody sms or call me, I will be see whether want to answer or reply the message , depending on my mood & the weather outside. Ok back to the story, after replying his sms, get up from bed & head for shower & have breakfast after that.

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Took the MRT towards Jurong to meet Yassier first, reach 15 min earlier then the meet up time, so sat down & wait patiently for yassier to come. When yassier come, then syafiq came after yassier's train, so three of us headed to orchard by taking the green line, while on the way, they try to frightened me about the medical check up for NS that I am going soon which is next month. Hahaha too bad la guys your story never make me frightened but more excited :).

When reach, Find James who wating for us for a quite few mins & headed to lucky plaza arcade to start the session, hahah Khai join in an hour later, we play till 7 pm, Woah I am really impressed with them, most of them can play well & most of the game, either one of us will lose by just the last black ball or carelessness, I enjoy playing with the group of people, even though its challenging but it's fun.

Had dinner @ mac then headed to the Padang with just walking with our two muscular legs, along the way, each of us do stupid things from climbing up the slope & go down slop with card board to running & was hit by the lamp post, hahaha I know it's idiotic of us, but cannot be blame boys will be boys :). Reach the desire destination & chill till almost 12, so tired & headed home separately as all live at different part of singapore, reach home , shower & had my supper & dozed off till the next morning, I enjoy myself alot ,wish to have this kind of activities again soon, dont know when ???, hahah ok got to go , will update again soon :)

2009-06-02T21:04:00.002+08:00

Holiday started for me already & boredom strikes so fast that when I wake up today from bed, I got nothing to do at all. I got nothing in mind at all, in my mind just pure empty like a vessel. Sianz !!!!, first day only die of boredom, what going to happen to me in remaining 5 weeks 4 days time ? only god knows :), muahahaaha

I was so bored, that I cleaned my room & found all my testimonials & certificates inside a file, last time I remember, I've misplace it after I get my result for N level two years ago. I decided to check what certificates I received, Wahhhh !!!!, I got more than 30 certificates in total, some are academics , some are CCA & most of it my martial arts certificates. As I look at it, I feel very impressed I have achieved alot in different specific fields. Looking at it one by one brings back the memories :D

Hmmm 17 years of getting certificates month by month, year by year, let's see what certificate I will receive when I turn 18 this year, maybe what certificates it will be? seriously speaking there is no crime having alot of certificates or achieving something that you desire, what I can say it's up to you to decide what you want in life, you are the master of your destiny !!!, ok got to go, will update again soon :D

2009-06-01T14:46:00.000+08:00

Wheee back with blogging!!, sorry for not updating for quite long, been busy lately but now I am free as a bird. Exam is over, holiday started. I really got no plans at all actually for the whole month break before industrial attachment commence back in July. Hmmm I wonder what I'm going to do for the whole month, any ideas ???, please leave your suggestions on my tag box, thx people :).

Get an email from MDIS from one of the personnel in that institute, reconsidering whether am I going to further my studies after National service ? let me think about it, as learning is a never ending journey till death. I've been thinking about where will I be in the next 10 years ? only god knows while I venture out and find out myself as time flies smoothly.

Ok got to go, I need a take break after mugging for 6 months like zombie just for this exam, will update again if I got time to do so, if times permits me :P, bye people !!!! :P

2009-05-28T18:21:00.001+08:00

Haven't been blogging quite for some time :( , it's not lazy off me to blog but I just too busy & my schedule is packed with alot works, projects & on coming June final year exam which is next week, PHEWW I am so not prepared at all , same applies to my whole classmates. What I can say "Just try my best & let's wait what will be happened next ??? , hope it's a good thing :D "

Receive a letter from HSA today at last due to some mistake I made last month. From the day I get caught by that fool till today, I have alot of hatred & vengeance towards this old bloody mother f***er racists discipline master who try to act big at the school, try to be principal, dream on la !!!!, what I can't accept is when I was caught with my two other friends, he let them off just like a wind while for me, he ask me to sign document & send to HSA for fine, yup now I got to wait for one more letter, to know how much I need to pay for the fine.

ARGHHHH !!!!, I curse this asshole to suffer & die tragically, Curse him to get bang by trailer & shattered into pieces like chopped pork, Bloody racists, Curse you and your generations, may you all suffered more worse than what am I suffering now.

2009-05-24T15:05:00.000+08:00

Hey people, back with new updates, I came across one of my favourite TV show which is Jackass, been a fan of them since secondary school, today I will share wit you two funny videos either it's funny or it's idiotic to you all, up to you all to decide :D, ok happy watching :D

2009-05-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

This what will you get when you mixed with the bunch of crazy people including me :

Yesterday during CNC CAM (theory) class, we spend our time camwhoring as no tomorrow for the world, as lesson still goes on while my lecturer, Mr Khong is revising with us, we were busy snapping pictures non-stop.The idea of taking pictures was started by Fahmi & Ru wei playing with my phone as I copying notes, hmmm when they see my phone camera's pixel, they started to snap more pic of them, wah envy them lor, take pic never jio me, muahahah how to jio me when I was busy copying notes from darren notebook.

Exams is coming in two weeks time, so there been alot of intense revisons everyday for each modules we took in the course.After exam, all been will be out station to different company for industrial attachment in singapore or china.

I took this chance to say to my classmates, good luck for your industrial attachement in July, hope to see you guys back at graduation ceremony next year, I am going to miss you guys even though sometimes we quarrel, exchange fists & swears etc, I will really miss those time when July comes, so I am gonna spend more time with you each of you guys before July comes, Ok gtg , will update again if I got time to do so.

2009-05-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

Hey there people, back with new updates :), hmmm nothing to do at home today actually, it's was raining whole day in my area, yup it's cold but still I switch on the air con as I like chilling feeling then stuffy, crazy me :P !!! . Yesterday night, I went to the library to borrowed some books on psychology, hahaha you readers may be wandering why I borrowed this kind of books as usually I borrow reading items like Black belt Magazine, BJJ/ MMA books etc, yeah I like to put it aside for now as I like to take a break from the world of fighting.

Why this time I borrowed books on psychology, well the answer is simple coz I will be pursuing my studies on psychology next year, the course I currently taking now is not going anywhere at all or doing any good coz times are bad now actually, well back to the topic.The books I borrowed really help me alot in terms of knowing myself well much better in terms of my characters & so on. It also help to gain some knowledge what is happening to the world & the people around me too & I want to be psychiatrist help people who in need of mental problem etc.

I been reading this book since I borrowed it yesterday, as I flip pages by pages, the more interesting & excitement it brings me to & goes ..... :),you may wandering what are the tittle of the books I am reading now:

Life Before Life, Children's memories of previous life
Law Of Attraction

After completion of reading these book mention above, I will borrow more books on psychology, It is just so interesting, dynamic, Simple to understand etc, ok gtg will update again if I got the time to do so :) p.s : I am so in psychology :P

2009-05-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hey back with blogging people!!!! wheee!!!!!!!!!!!!. This week been an hectic week for me actually & today i wake up late never go friday prayers, some more I injured my left ankle & right knee due to gym session & rush to AMK ITE, long story la, so suay !!!!

I've been planning & thinking of training my cardio & stamina back. I also thinking of lifting weights for endurance training as my body now is ....., all my biceps, triceps, fore arms, chests, my six packs, thights & calfs is gone, back to small size, flabby & fat, so pai sei lor if I take out my shirt & people see & commented " hey razak what happened to your body sei !!! ". What I know the last time I fight & my body is buff & muscular is last February lor, now is nothing but fats. Hmmm next week I am going to run for 50 rounds either in the stadium or run the distance of 5.2 km, anybody want join me? if yes call me hor, ok ???

I feel weak, fat & unactive lei when today I off to shower in the morning, look in the mirror in the toilet, OMG I don't look sexy anymore lei, shit!!!! , I want to look sexy like the last time when I took off my shirt & weight in for competition with my pic taken. My weight from middle weight which is 70 kg go down to bantam weight which now 62, I feel so lousy & uneasy, will be back to my routine which is train hard, fight hard & play hard even thought take alot of pain & mental strenght to do it, ok got to go will update again soon!!!!!!

2009-05-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

Backkkk with new update!!!! sorry for not updating for quite long. I've been busy with school project & exam is coming soon too, busy with student council stuff. hahaha I just got back from Dover ITE, haha very tired, got ushering for April intake 08 graduation ceremony, sibei tired lo!!! but its fun as I able to catch up with my S.C. cliques too from other WEST college too.
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I've been missing from class for quite sometime due to some reason some are personal, some are school event, alot of my lecturers been looking high & low for me even though I finish all their assignments, but attendance still plays a part for me to get higher GPA at the end of the day.
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Hmmm before I go, few weeks ago I happened to watch this M.V,@ youtube, muahaha the song is in japanese, sing by my no.1 idol the late Hideto "hide" matsumoto, enjoy the clips yar, if you don't understand what he is singing go find the translation to the song I posted. Theese are 2 songs I going let you guys watch, & enjoy watching !!!!
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Beauty & Stupid

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Tell Me

2009-05-05T04:19:00.000+08:00

My life in martial arts for 3 years

(click for better view)

Hey there people out there!!!, Back with another update, yup this is my first time blogging early in the morning, time is now is 0419 hrs, hahah awake from sleep because of some dreams which bring back my memories when I first started my martial arts journey at the age of 15.

Me locking Lawrence in the Armbar position

Yup, as you guys know or aware that I've been not fighting since my last competition, subbmission grappling @ FWA in March 21st due to some injuries which take some time to heal which is mentally, physically & emotionally, yup it take time to heal actually & I'm still in the process of healing before I return to train & fight again, my trainers & coaches have been searching high & low for me, how I get the info???, coz my older brother is one of the student in same gym I train in, so what ever the message , he will tell me, yup alot of news...., rumours & gossip in the gym itself, bah let it be, as this things are just plain & make up story only.

Me & Jie, my buddy, my training partner @ CCK before I left for FWA to

become their fighter @ FWA.
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I will return back to MMA world back soon, but I can't promise when I will be back, so long I observe, my weight drop drastically from 70 kg to 60 kg due to depression, my muscle tone turns fat, my skills & techniques need to be brushen up once I return back to fight, yup one last thing, don't asume that the old Alif Razak is going to the same type of fighter & same fighting style again, it's going to be hell lot of different when he back to compete...... got to go, enjoy looking at the pics yar :)

2009-05-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

Have you ever slept in the train & go "overshot" out of your destination ?, I do most of times due to tiredness coming back from long hours in school , alot of times actually to be frank. When I everytime slept & "overshot", I will happened to meet alot of people in different walk of life in the train when I awake from "overshot".

The most I encountered is man wearing a women's outfit or women in men's outfit. Strange or weird or crazy ??? up to you to decide, but what I can say it's normal, why I say it's normal coz modern society & trend in the world tend to cross dress.From head to toe, inside outside of the cloth we or they are wearing or what they put on their face like eye liner, earings etc.

I do cross dress sometimes like when I doing a gig or doing cos play. Cross dressing got nothing to do with gay, police going undercover do cross dress for some assignment for example.hahaah yup some of us can't accept, well it's up to them to think or accept as they got brain & mature enough to think. So the next time you happened to bump or come across dresser, don't be shocked cos they can dress much better than a normal male or female out there, no offence guys, just my personal point of view :D, ok got to go will update again soon!!! :D

2009-05-03T13:41:00.000+08:00

Alot of my lecturers asked me this particular question " what you going after your NITEC ?", this question have been asked countless of time by lecturers, parents, relatives,friends of mine & even myself. I got the answer at last after been thinking about it for the past 1 year, 4 mths during the course of my study.

I know what to do after I get my NITEC, I got 3/4 options to choose, these are options:

Go to higher NITEC to pursue another related course
Go to POLY to pursue similar course to the current one
Go to MDIS to pursue diploma in different field
Serve NS first then either work or back to studies

hmmm hard right to decide which to choose from ? Got to see my result first, ok got to go, will tell you soon which I will be choosing when I done with my NITEC, bye for now :)

2009-05-01T13:54:00.000+08:00

Let me welcome you to my new blog

My new blog is officially open with new skin, new tagbox, new life & lastly new story to update as times to come. Old blog is removed as some memories is just pleasant while some is nonsenses which is unbearable & unreasonable to me especially of course.
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Nothing much to update today as it is just a beginning of a new journey & life of me.I will update tml, Will be very different from the last time, ok got to go... that is the first entry for today.